"that's a big box." Ben said. "Oh good my meditation cushion is here." I replied. "I could have given you mine." Ben said. Mom and Ben placed it just inside the door for me. I meditated on it later last night. Sobriety is bumpy, but the cushion helps. The meditation didn't go well, I couldn't focus. I swam today, the hour of swimming five days a week is going well. I volunteered this morning. They surprised me with a gift card, which was an added bonus. I need to get a job that pays now, I don't know where. Take care all! Thanks for reading!